I was postponing going to bed tonight, and unexpectedly D woke up crying. I waited for him to calm down, and eventually made my way upstairs to his bedroom. In the dark of the room I picked up my baby, who is trying so desperately to become a toddler, and I held him close. Immediately his crying stopped and he burrowed his head into my neck. We snuggled for a moment, rocking back and forth together. And my heart felt a burst of love for this precious little boy in our family.
It never ceases to amaze me that in the past 10 months since he was born he has been a stabilizing force for good in my little corner of the world. Our lives have been turned upside down in more ways than one since last October, and there were many days that were simply too much for me to bear. I would hold him, try my hardest to push the challenges from my mind, and only focus on the miracle that a new baby brings to the world. I have learned more about love, forgiveness, trust in a Heavenly Father, gratitude, and hope through his presence and the timing of him joining our family than I ever could have had he not been here. My words are a little rusty - it's been a while since I've written. Nevertheless, my life is forever changed for the good because of this sweet baby boy. And I am eternally grateful for the joy and love that I get to feel every day as a mother.
Snuggling with a baby is oh-so good for the soul.
